What I am about to write is going to surprise myself. I just came to the conclusion that I am on my way to be content (in some areas) with where I am at in life right now. I can't remember the last time that things have felt this "right". Right now, I'm spending a lot of time at church and watching the children every night for Lanny Hubbard's meetings. It's not just the babysitting that I love, but I feel that it's ok that I'm in Massena, its ok that I LOVE spending time at NTC, its ok that I'm going to school at Canton for now. I always thought that right after high school I'd book it out of the 'north country' and "make something of myself". Right now I am making something of myself because I'm imparting things into these incredible children at my church. I keep hearing stories that make me cry about them wanting to spend time with me and loving me. I feel like being involved with the kids ministry at NTC on Sundays, Thursdays, VBS, special events.. is sooo right. I don't know if I can/be able to do this someday when I'm older, but for now.. this is my joy. These children that hug me and say "I love you Meghan" when they leave, are my joy. Maybe I'm just starting to feel whole because I feel like this is my ministy? Preaching is great, being on a prayer team is great, but teaching and loving kids is great too! I'm learning that it's ok to be in Massena for now, and to do what I am doing. It's comforting to know that it's ok with God and it is ok with me.
I'm not sure if I'll be posting again before I leave for Florida. We leave Monday night for Syracuse, and leave at 6am for Florida to get there by noon. Please pray for us and that amazing things happen in my body and in my heart. Pray for Jesus to heal my heart and take away dissapointment and hurt. I think that's more important that my neck being healed.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
self-assurance.
Posted by Meghan at 8:10 PM
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2 comments:
What an amazing place to be! I'm so glad you know how loved you are. And personally, I don't think there is anything greater than teaching children, whether your own or someone else's. I'm so glad you've found your niche and that you are seeing the benefits of it now.
It's obvious kids are drawn to you and I know Ian and Sawyer would love you too!
Ok..Meghan...I've waited and waited for an update. :D What's up in your world these days now that you are back home? Inquiring minds want to know.
Oh and by the way...since I've read this post several times now...:p...Quoting Chery Crow...if it makes you happy!
I love to see you happy and enjoying life...isn't that what it's all about. Speaking as a parent there is no greater joy than seeing my children happy and living life to it's fullest. Since God is the ultimate FATHER...he's up there smiling from ear to ear.:D
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